My first impression of
you?
Just another college
“It Girl” who will probably have nothing else to her name.
WRONG.
Dead wrong.
Never in my whole life have I met a girl so energetic. Someone who has the impossible combination of being sporting YET a perfectionist. Someone who always hatches plans, yet has the uncanny ability to be spontaneous. Someone who rarely fails to brighten up someone else’s day, even when it is at the cost of dampening her own.
I quote
Manu Rao:
“Chew Su Juin has the talent to make anyone she talks to feel like the most special person on earth.”
I second that. And for that, I am secretly in awe of you.
You might not know it, but one of the most touching moments of my college life was when you were going to fork out 5 bucks for me to eat dinner when I knew that you yourself were broke. And that was only during one of the first few times I had really spoken to you.
You might not know it, but from that moment onwards, you were officially someone special in my eyes. We are more alike than we know, I think. I feel like there are still a lot more similarities we share that we have yet to discover. Since you have talked about our similarities, I shall talk about our differences.
The most outstanding difference would be: Chew Su Juin smiles almost 24/7. And a smile from Nicole Teo is rare, almost as rare as not being asked by the ADP librarians to shut up (don’t know about you but that’s the case for me). Why should I force myself to smile and “be nice” like the 1,235,464,123,855,938 people out there? 99% of those smiles are just cordial smiles anyway. So I’d rather give a true smile now and then. You know?
And you are right, it IS hard to change me. Its not that I don’t adapt well to new environments, but if I have something to be proud of, it is how firm my personality stands. I might change my attitude, but I will never change my personality. For the very simple reason that I have met people who can love me for who I truly am. And they are all that matter, are they not? So why should I change to suit people that I don’t really give a shit about?
And now we talk about work. You are as much of a perfectionist as I am, but more humane in the sense that Chew Su Juin allows room for mistakes. Nicole Teo is inhumane in the sense that she is a robot, and she makes almost no mistakes, she only fails to be excellent once in a blue moon, and if you stand in the way of her success she will fire a bazooka at you. And I think, for that reason, people find it easier to warm up to you compared to me. Who wants to warm up to a cold metallic robot anyway?
Yada Yada Yada. I’m talking like I know you so well.
Right?
WRONG.
Wrong again.
Something tells me that I have only seen the surface of what is Chew Su Juin. And if I am right, same goes for most of the other ADPians.
And if I am right again – at least, I think I am – you are someone that hides your true self so deeply that one might take years just to dig it out. Beneath all those smiles and what Abhi calls the “bird laugh”, lies so much more.
And I definitely look forward to discovering that “so much more”.
