My best friend

I realised how much I've changed and moved on, and I wish I could return to the times we shared and enjoyed so much when we were younger.

I wonder how she is now, probably happy in Alor Star, still hanging out with the same friends, still crazy over riding the motorbike, hopefully, missing her friend over here.

Lee Bee Yung was my friend, and one true best friend I've had. We went to the same primary school for 6 years, sat in the big yellow bus for 6 years, but never talked much to each other. We didn't get along very well.

But everything changed when we moved on to Secondary School. Suddenly the two of us found ourselves in a new school and new surrounding, alien and afraid. But she had a sister who went there, thus she had extra information. She told me and guided me, took care of me, and shared the best 3 years of my life together.

From familiar strangers we were so close, too close, until our teacher's had to seperate us from sitting beside each other in class. We would laugh and talk so loud during breaks and no-teacher periods, so much until we got detention and punishment because we're just so noisy.

Noisy but close.

We had the same classes for the next 3 years of middle school, became each other's science lab partners, car-pool partners, she was my math teacher, she was my secret-keeper although she didn't do a good job la, haha, she was my complain hotline, she was the person I gushed about the 1st and 2nd exboyfriends. She read my emails, my smses, phone called each other everyday even though we live 200 meters away,saw each other in school everyday.

She was there everyday.She even had my housekeys. Only to play the computer when I was out of the house.Hahaha.

We made Wednesday the day we would have Ramly Burgers, and take strolls around the taman illegally on the bike. We would have secret sessions at my home gaming Aaric's PS2, which was crazy because we loved games so much.

But moving to Nilai changed the closeness of our relationship drastically. She was a good friend to try maintain the friendship.I was too indulged in self-pity about depression in the new school. I was too involved with love. I didn't care about her feelings.I forgot about my best friend.

4 years have passed since we left each other, sometimes crossing paths.

Lee Bee Yung, you're my best friend. And I miss you. Although we're not close, it has been hard and its still hard for anyone to take your spot in my heart. And no one has done a good enough job or came close.

I wish....I had her back in my life. I wish I could make up 4 years of lost friendship.